I SURRENDER

Here I am a woman, all grown up
Been a wife, a mother yet not enough
Never been a young girl free to explore
Until now, I want to see behind that door

The door I shut many years ago
Let my youth go by, I didn't know
Thought I was ready to be a grown-up
Didn't know there were things to interrupt

Interrupt the process, just by pass my youth
Looking back I could blame and give proof
Wasn't my fault, I was simply misled
But I'll claim responsibility instead

Now experiencing youth at a tender age
Is quite different and trying as a sage
Yet unique, exciting and scary too
But I know this stage I'll get through

Tomorrow another day, I'm feeling confused
In the middle of life, I'm feeling renewed
Young, romantic and school girl crushes
From a woman, a grandma who is trusted

Divided I am, between now and my youth
Like having false teeth and growing new
Like being of age and feeling so tender
It's a good time, a scary time and I SURRENDER